‘Why would You give and then take him away’
Well-known Christian rapper TobyMac writes song about the passing of his son. “It felt like an honest confession of the questions, pain, anger, doubt, mercy and promise”.
NEW YORK · 13 JANUARY 2020 · 17:00 CET
TobyMac, former member of DC Talk and an influential Hip Hop artist with seven solo albums, has written a song about the experience of losing a son.
“‘21 years’ is a song I wrote about the recent passing of my firstborn son, Truett Foster McKeehan. I loved him with all my heart. Until something in life hits you this hard, you never know how you will handle it”, the artist said on his Instagram account.
He said he was thankful for all those who have surrounded his family with “love, starting with God’s”.
He and his wife Amanda have four other children.
“GOD PROMISED HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE US”
TobyMac expressed the feelings he has gone through. “Writing this song felt like an honest confession of the questions, pain, anger, doubt, mercy and promise that describes the journey I’m probably only beginning”.
And added: “One thing I know is that I am not alone. God didn’t promise us a life of no pain or even tragic death, but He did promise He would never leave us or forsake us. And I’m holding dearly to that promise for my son as well as myself”.
Read the full lyrics of the song:
Woke up cuz the light poured in
Day 2 let the flood begin
Day 1 left me in my bed
I can barely remember it
Heart shattered in a thousand ways
They tell me pain gonna come in waves
They tell me I'm gonna be okay
I'm still waiting for the first to break
Why would You give and then take him away
Suddenly end could You not let it fade
What I would give for a couple of days
A couple of days
Is it just across the Jordan
Or a city in the stars
Are you singing with the angels
Are you happy where you are
Well until this show is over
And you run into my arms
God has you in heaven
But I have you in my heart
I just can't make sense of this
Everything is so dissonant
Somebody said he was meant for this
But I'm just straight missing him
I wanna wake up to your laugh at 2
Catch you when you steal my shoes
Say good morning, afternoon
Talk you through those "Alex blues"
Listen to your latest beats
Talk about what the lyrics mean
Venmo you another loan
See you do your second show
You said you'd turn, you would turn it around
Thought that you had time to straighten it out
Told me that you were my prodigal son
But this isn't home
Did he see You from a long way off
Running to him with a Father's heart
Did You wrap him up inside Your arms
And let him know, that he's home
21 years makes a man full-grown
21 years, what a beautiful loan
21 years, I loved everyone
Thank you, Lord, for my beautiful son